This is starting to get weird...?

im big in the dream interpretation movement - and i would have to know all of the details of your dream but just the suicide stuff sounds like maybe you have a guilty conscious. actions and objects in dreams are meant for interpretation. lots of reds mean extreme love or extreme violence (blood) and the void in which you panic just sounds like you feel like your life isnt going anywhere ... i dont know if this helps or just sounds like psycho babble ... but good luck hope i helped